holidays

the holidays are tough. why?I dont know. I mean, why do we dread having to handg out with people that love us?And then if we have no one to be with, we are so sad.
I miss my family. Cant understand why I do not contact them.
I guess because when I do, I have to face all the reality my fucked up life has to offer.
I mean real life, is nothing like those stupid"reality"shows. It never goes that easy.
People actually feel something, and its not always so damn great in the end.
Maybe, I need to try not to be so selfish anymore.
I need to get over the fact that it is not about me all the time.
I need to call my mom.
Do you>?